Oh God..... What to write about. Ive gone through so much this summer and I havent told the world! Well, its not really GREAT stuff, just stuff. XANGA STUFF My xanga turned THREE a week ago on the 15th. Sorry little guy. Ive been so busy. But everyone let him know he IS appreciated and that we're all so sorry we missed his birthday. Yes, its a he. APARTMENT STUFF I moved out of my old apt and moved into my old apt. haha Sounds funny right? Well when RACHEL graduated from MCC this past spring, we moved out of our apt on Genesee Park Blvd and I moved in with my classmate RICARDO. I stayed there for only a month a half after not seeing or talking to the landlord and never signing a lease. I moved out because I needed to. The place reeked of cat pee and litter and it was ALWAYS a mess. I mean, thats fine. Some people can live in those conditions. I cant. No thanks. So what I did is I moved out hoping to find a new place to move into by August first. I ended up calling my old landlord (from Genesee Pk. Blvd.) and called RACHEL back to see if she wouldnt mind moving in with me again at the same place, only a floor down. She said yes since she was actually planning on coming back to MCC in the fall and she didnt want to live at home. KEARSTON was looking for a place to live too since housing at St. John Fisher is too much. I asked her if she wanted to move in with us. We needed her to anyway, it was a three bedroom. But the rent would still be too much for us, so we decied to find another roomate. My friend COURNEY from MCC needed a place to stay b/c she too was going to MCC in the fall and needed a new apt. So she checked out the apt, loved it, and now four of us are living in a 3 bedroom apt, 7 minutes from MCC, for cheaper since theres FOUR of us!!! But that happened, like what? Almost a MONTH ago!? Wooo! I gotte get you guys caught UP! JOB STUFF I got a JOB FINALLY!!! After searching high and low all freaking SUMMER! I got a job at Urban Behavior at the Marketplace Mall. Its a clothing store so its not too stressful. Im still getting used to it though. However, the people there warmed up to me SO fast. Ive never been at a job where the employees and managers just welcomed me. We're already joking around and Ive been working for TWO DAYS! Im hoping I can keep this job. I like it. Only problem is Im probably going to be transferred to Greeceridge. Which sucks because Im liking the proximity to this mall and the people. We'll just have to see. VACATION STUFF I went to NYC for the FIRST TIME EVER last week! I went with my lovely and beautiful boyfriend, DAVE. He showed me around times square, the subway stations, especially Grand Central Station, and the Park. We went to the Museum of Natural History, I think. haha That was really fun. We got to walk around like crazy looking at all the cool exhibits. Dave bought me dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe as well as tickets to a comedy club (for the following night) and half priced AVENUE Q tickets!!! It was my first broadway show and I loved it so so much. I wished I could be down there on the stage. Im also going to FL to visit ROBIN tomorrow! Ive been to FL twice already for my senior trip and spring vaca '06. Now Im going to Disney (for the second time) because thats where ROBIN got her internship. Im hoping we have a lot of fun. I can tell shes so excited for me to come see her. She bought Cirque De Soleil tickets for us for Friday night and we're planning on visiting every section of Disney. It should be fun. BOYFRIEND STUFF  Yyyyyeahhhh. *sigh* DAVE left yesterday to NYC for good. For three long years of grad school. He'll be back for summer and other breaks but its not the same as having him here, obviously. For one thing, MCC has the same schedule as HS's do, as in their breaks. We get off for Feb. Presidents Week, just like HS, but no other college gets that off. Our spring break is AFTER everyone else's, just like HS. So our breaks wont even match up and that makes me so mad. The only way Id get to see him during the school year would be to fly down, and thats almost a months rent for me. I can just see it now. Ill be going to school and trying to work as much as possible to save for rent and plane tickets. No food or new clothes for me. Id rather see DAVE. Its so hard not to cry when I really think about how hard this is going to be. Before, he was right down the road and I could see him when he was done with whatever he needed to do. Now, Im alone every night and can only text him during the day so we dont rack up our phone bills. It sucks that we can only read notes and texts from one another, we cant even hear eachothers voices. I guess thats too much to ask? Im so afraid of him meeting someone else or just plain losing interest. Im afraid of us fighting over the phone and not being able to make peace. Im afarid of hurting because I just miss him that much. Idk what else Im afarid of, but it feels like so much more. I just cant express it in words. I really cant. Im alone, lonely, and scared. Thats all I can say, but it doesnt feel like enough to feel so upset over. I feel like he doesnt care as much as I do. It makes me even more sad when I hugged him goodbye before he left, it seemed like cake for him to do it. It was so EASY for him to say drive safe and be patient with me. WTF IS THAT?! I guess I just want him to break down in front of me so Ill understand that maybe HE'S hurting too. Thats the problem. I dont think he's hurting or even upset that he's leaving me. Im the only one who cries before I sleep. Im the only one who cries in the middle of the day when I think about it. Im the only one who cried while listening to a song that makes me think of us. And Im the only one who cries when writing this. He doesnt get it I guess. Jeanine | 
Im excited!
